Beginnings and Endings

I'm back from vacation. I decided before we left for the Outer Banks that I needed some time not to think. Not to stress out about all the things that were driving me nuts a month ago, or stress about all the things to come in the next few months. Just to be. To ignore that I have a life at home full of responsibilities and to do lists. I spent two weeks with nothing particular to get done, no deadlines or requirements. It's strange, that if you let yourself drift into a state of living like that, then coming home is a surreal circumstance that takes a couple of days to adjust to. And so it is, I'm adjusting. Getting my bearings. Wrapping up the end to a job, a vacation, a person I've been for the past few years. It feels strange to be entering to a new stage in my life, and while sometimes it feels uncomfortable and frightening, it still feels completely right. I am where I need to be, doing what I should be doing.

I'm still thinking of the ocean. It was oddly quite on our street last night, and I realized it was the pounding of the waves that was absent. We stayed right on the beach in Kill Devil Hills, so the ocean was never out of ear shot unless we left the house. It's a soothing sound, and I managed to take a ton of photos of the water. I guess it's because I live so far from the ocean that I feel the need to capture it as much as possible when I'm near it. We did other things besides the beach as well, including the Wright Brothers Memorial and some browsing at the local shops. I boogie boarded with my husband, swam in the ocean, and ate a ton of seafood. It was wonderful.
We went to an artist co-op while we were there, full of great artwork and talented artists. Browsing through the shop, I got so excited about coming home to work, and all of the projects I want to start and have going. About getting dirty with paint and sticky with glue, and truly getting into the business I decided to start this summer. It's overwhelming in a way, because I can't wait to start, but I don't know quite where to begin either. I need to choose one thing. Set a couple of goals. I'm starting off with three tasks: 1) work on the website for the store, 2) make art everyday, and 3) journal. We'll see how this start goes...